Today, March 29th, 2011

Today was loud music in the car. Singing Sara, Let the Rain (see below) loud and free. Who cares who sees.

Today was picking up my daughter for lunch, a walmart run...when she was supposed to be in school. Breaking rules are fun sometimes.

Today was a long hot shower with the struggle to not splash shampoo in my cup of coffee.

Today was a fountain diet coke... from McDonald's. Because I wanted one.

Today was time with Mandy and Veronica - My soul sisters, you know, those you can be real with, and still, love and acceptance shouts past the problems we discuss.

Today was my friend reminding me how old I was...really. I'm not joking.

Today was an emotional precious phone conversation with one of my favorite people in the whole world, my Shanen.

Today was hearing my lovers voice on the phone, long distance, and missing him. Oh it's just the gift to have someone I miss so much...after just three days, and after being married 19 years.

Today was kissing the faces of the little ones I would die for goodnight. Hearing my Isabelle say she loved me "fifty million," and my Gabby say "till the end of numbers."

Today was my sixteen year old telling me about his friends... by his choice.

Today was Isaac's cheeks, in my hands.

Today is my dog curled in a ball at my feet.

Today. It was good.

Today. I am thankful.

Sara Bareilles Let The Rain Lyrics

Give Yourself Away

Refocus Sundy! Stop and just refocus! Remember Who you belong to! Remember Who is true! Move your eyes to look past the many years of traditions, the Sundays that are the same, pats on the back and impersonal smiles. Move your mouth past the songs sung robot style, the ritual response of, "I'm fine" or the fear that says, "Don't ask them that, it's none of your business." Move your ears past the judgements towards those unlike yourself, the critical finger pointing so that you can feel better about yourself, the thoughts that you know better what someone else should do, say, be....love. COME ON ALREADY! Give yourself away. And, if the people around you don't like the way you do that, how you do that, or for whom you do that. Well, really it's me that you wrestle your salvation with, there is no third person involved. What I, Sundy, want to tell you, Sundy, is this: WHATEVER YOU DO, WHERE EVER YOU ARE, PLEASE DON'T EVER FORGET THAT GIVING YOURSELF AWAY, SO THAT HE CAN USE YOU - WILL IN FACT, SET YOU FREE. Hey, little Miss Know it All - Your life is not your own...quit acting like it is.